I am not a perfect parent.
Shocking, I know, but I feel that I should be open and honest with all of you who think I am...umm....succeeding at this parenting thing.
Because every second of every day I feel like I am failing.
This parenting stuff isn't getting any easier. I thought that once my kids could dress and feed themselves that things would run smoothly and life would get easier.
The thing is, my kids are smart. My kids are sneaky. My kids are devious at times. My kids know how to push my buttons. My kids keep learning new "stuff" and I am having a difficult time keeping up, or, better yet, staying ahead of them.
Just when I finally get them to stop using the word "arse", they decide to teach their two year old sister how to say "dink". And then after explaining why they shouldn't eat so much junk food, I find a bag of cookies in their dresser drawer.
I feel like I am Forrest Gump just running, and running, and running without an end in sight. I see people doing crafts with smiles on their faces and I see kids interested in playing at the park or in the sandbox. I see children hugging their parents and just generally looking happy being together.
The only thing my boys enjoy doing is beating the crap out of each other.
And being a girl who never was a boy and had a brother, I just do not get it. I cant help but look at them with a puzzling expression and asking them "Why?".
"How is that fun?"
"Why do you enjoy hurting each other?"
"Cant you find a toy to play with?"
"Someone is going to get hurt"
"Don't come crying to me when someone ends up hurt"
"Cant we all just get along?"
So my point is....well...I don't really have a point.
I try to get through my days as a Mother doing the best I can to raise happy, healthy children even though some days I want to run far, far away without an end in sight.
I am hopeful that all I do is the "right thing" and I will be able to laugh about my children using the words "dink" and "arse" one day.
Because I am sure the years ahead are going to bring us many more challenges.