February 16, 2012

The Day

I walked through the double doors with three arguing children in tow, excited to fill out the paperwork.
It was Kindergarten Registration Day.
The day I had been looking forward to for many years.
The beginning of the rest of my life.

All three children in school.
Every day.
All day.

I practically skipped my way into the office.
I almost belted out the song "Hallelujah",  but restrained myself out of fear that they would turn us away.
A folder full of papers was handed to me with a pen.

I started writing everything down.
Her name...
birth date.
April 20, 2008.

I paused.
That day feels like just last week.
I remember waddling into the hospital anxious to get everything going.
Still not believing that we were going to have a baby girl.
I remember the pain...
...the joy.
The perfect daughter.

And now I was filling out a form for her to hop on a bus every day and leave her Momma at home.
Every day.
All day.

People always tell you to enjoy the moments because the time goes by too fast.
And as I sat there with my three children, I had to stop.
Because this moment that I had waited so long for, was not one I was enjoying.

The chaos.
The "needing" and "wanting".
The playing.
The serving.
The chauffeuring.

I enjoy it.
I like my kids being at home with their Momma.
I like the noise.

And in 7 months, I will be alone without my children.
All day.

Were you sad when all of your chidlren went to school?
Did you jump for joy?
What will I do with my time?

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Jenners said...

I was THRILLED. But I'm not one of those mommas that thrives on having her kid home every second. I feel bad about it but I'm not.

Gigi said...

By the time mine went to school, I was working - so even though I cried after dropping him off - it wasn't that big of an adjustment from the daycare routine.

Now in about 5-6 months when I drop him off at college? That will be a whole 'nother story completely!

And? Just so you know, once they walk through those doors to kindergarten - time starts to go a LOT faster. I don't know why or how - but it does. I KNOW - especially since it seems like it was only last year that I sent mine off to kindergarten! *sigh*

Life with Kaishon said...

Oh no. This made me cry a little : (

debi9kids said...

It breaks my heart :(
My two youngest will be going full-day next year and it makes me cry just thinking about it.

Sweet story about your girl.

The Paw Relations said...

What a great post. I can remember counting down the days until my youngest started school. Then when that moment came I wanted to lock the doors and hide away with her inside. What was I going to do with myself all day without her company?

Thankfully she loved school and I soon got into the routine of having time to myself again. Then I fell pregnant and terribly my first thought was, 'crap, I've just got used to having me time again.'

Beautiful picture.

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Stacy Uncorked said...

I remember looking forward to having Princess Nagger in school, though it was a bittersweet time. I looked forward to all the 'Me' time I would surely enjoy...what's funny is that I miss her when she's gone all day, and somehow all that 'free' time I thought I'd have isn't so 'free'. ;) Now that Little Dude has joined our family, I'm looking forward even more to when he'll start school (fall of 2013) because he's a much bigger handful to have at home all day than PN was. Definitely a difference between boys and girls! :)

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Jen said...

I am in the same boat. The triplets will be in school all day every day next year. I will work 2 days a week but still that I a lot of time.

It really is a bitter sweet thing.

JamericanSpice said...

I was very sad when my son left for school. I cried. cried and bawled.

I still miss him.

I love when they are hme with me even though it sometimes drive me nuts. But yes I miss him.

I have baby girl with me now and this year when she goes to school I'll bawl even more. Oy.

I am Harriet said...

Wait till they go off to college...

Have a great weekend!

Kelly Deneen said...

We just registered our oldest for kindergarten last week too. It is sort of bittersweet. It means she is growing up. It also means I get to save some money at daycare. Yippeee!!!

I think I might be more sad about it when my youngest daughter goes to school because then it means both of my kids are kids...and not babies.

Love the photo, BTW. :)

Elaine A. said...

This will be me too before I know it. K will go 3 days in the Fall and I can hardly believe that is already the case!

I'm curious to know what you're going to do with all your time! ;)

Kailani said...

I have one more left who will be attending preschool in about a year and I can't wait to have my days back!

I would to volunteer more at my older kids school or just some time to myself.

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