October 18, 2012

The Tree

It has been 6 months since my Daddy went to Heaven.
It has not gotten any easier.
In fact, I think it has gotten harder because it is sinking in that he is really gone.....and not coming back.

Totally shitty.
Like runny, poop soup shitty.

I am not sure why his entire family was taken so young, but I am sure there is some deep meaning to it.
One that I will never be OK with though, because I miss him.
My kids miss him.
Everyone that knew him misses him.

There is now a framed photo of my Daddy hanging on our wall, right at our entrance way.
It is located beside the framed photo of my father in law who passed away in 2006....of the same, exact awful disease.

Told ya.
Runny, poop soup shitty, right?

There is also a tree outside our home.
I call it "Daddy's tree"
"Dad's tree"
"Memorial tree"
"The nicest damn tree I have ever seen"
I just know that this tree is going to grow up to be the most beautiful tree in the history of trees.
And I just know that while my hubby was planting the 30 foot tall, 2000 pound beauty, my Daddy was looking down shaking his head at all the trouble he was going through...for him.
Because my Dad did not enjoy any sort of "fuss".
But what he never really understood was that he was totally worth all of the fuss.
Just wait until we add the memorial plaque.
He will be shaking his head and rolling his eyes.
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sista said...

I agree its the shittyest.Lost my oldest brother, who was my best friend one year ago today. I will never get over it.

OneMommy said...

Sometimes life is crappy.

That IS a beautiful tree. I'm sure he is smiling when he sees it.

Our Neck of the Woods said...

So sorry for your loss. The tree is a great memorial for him. I love red maples and I have no doubt it will be a very beautiful tree!

Elaine A. said...

Just beautiful. And I'm so sorry and always will be...

Lolli said...

That is a gorgeous tree! I love the contrast of the colors.

Mona's Picturesque said...

I'm too so sorry for your loss. You will find a way to make it ♥ And what a gorgeous tree you have not to mention the talent to capture it!!!

Gigi said...

I love that you have that tree to remember him by. I have a feeling it will grow up to be the best tree.

marty said...

The second photo is beautiful and I hope as you watch the tree go through its growth and seasons your heart is comforted.

Jennifer said...

Offering big hugs and complete understanding. I wish I could say it gets easier.

Twisted Cinderella said...

((hugs)) your dad sounds like a wonderful man worthy of the "fuss". The tree is beautiful!

Jenners said...

The tree is gorgeous and a fitting memorial to your dad. Hugs to you.