December 23, 2014


Remember me?

I just spent many, many minutes trying to get back into this blog because I could not remember any of my passwords.  For a few of those minutes I thought that maybe this was a sign that I should just give up and let my blog go down in history.

But instead, I kept going.

Typing in every possible password I could think of until I had to prove who I was and make up a new one that I probably wont remember tomorrow.

Here I am.  Now what?  Where do I start?

My life is not what it was 6 months ago when I talked about horses and cats and Jersey the dog. In fact, it has completely been turned upside down into something I never would have predicted in a gazillion years.

I am surviving.  I take it day by day and consider every morning I get out of bed a huge success.  Yay me!  ((((group hug))))

I am still deciding if I should make this private so I can write my thoughts without fear of judgement and catty opinions, but, who knows?!

I have always considered writing a form of therapy and have wanted to return to this blog for months, but would not do so until some unfinished business was...ummmm.....finished. Instead of writing, I drove (and still do) to my therapist every week or two to spill my guts about my fucked up life. Finally I feel like I am on the right path for myself....for my sanity.

I am looking forward to happiness and joy.
I am looking forward to leading the life that I choose.
I am looking forward to finding myself.

But shit, it is alot of work.

A new haircut always helps.


Foursons said...

Your hair is gorgeous. I miss you. I hope everything is ok, it doesn't sound ok. Are you ok?

Gigi said...

The new haircut is fabulous. I'm sorry to hear that there was business. That's never any fun. Keeping you in my thoughts and hoping you and your family have a wonderful Christmas.

Kittykhat said...

Wishing you a peace-filled Christmas and a year filled with joy and new beginnings.

Anonymous said...

Rock it forward sweetie. To hell with anyone with an op, go your own path of happiness. Life is way too short. Merry Christmas and peace in 2015. Patty/NS

2callmemom said...

I am so glad to see you back! I always enjoyed your photos and stories.

The Lovely One said...

Welcome back! I, for one, think you should write out all your woes. One, it's very therapeutic. Two, you might be able to give insight to a reader
who might going through the same thing. And three, a reader might be able to give you advice if needed.

If you're worried about your anonymity being compromised, maybe you can change some identifying details. And if you're worried about snarky comments, you can turn off your comments.... or enjoy the fact that even the haters are reading your blog!

Hilary said...

I like the new haircut. And hope you're doing okay now. :-)