Yo

Yo.
Remember me?

I just spent many, many minutes trying to get back into this blog because I could not remember any of my passwords.  For a few of those minutes I thought that maybe this was a sign that I should just give up and let my blog go down in history.

But instead, I kept going.

Typing in every possible password I could think of until I had to prove who I was and make up a new one that I probably wont remember tomorrow.

Here I am.  Now what?  Where do I start?

My life is not what it was 6 months ago when I talked about horses and cats and Jersey the dog. In fact, it has completely been turned upside down into something I never would have predicted in a gazillion years.

I am surviving.  I take it day by day and consider every morning I get out of bed a huge success.  Yay me!  ((((group hug))))

I am still deciding if I should make this private so I can write my thoughts without fear of judgement and catty opinions, but, who knows?!

I have always considered writing a form of therapy and have wanted to return to this blog for months, but would not do so until some unfinished business was...ummmm.....finished. Instead of writing, I drove (and still do) to my therapist every week or two to spill my guts about my fucked up life. Finally I feel like I am on the right path for myself....for my sanity.

I am looking forward to happiness and joy.
I am looking forward to leading the life that I choose.
I am looking forward to finding myself.

But shit, it is alot of work.

A new haircut always helps.