I am not an emotional person.
Or maybe I am, but clench my fists and fight the emotion until it gets the best of me.
I don't know.
I am still trying to figure myself out.
I am complicated.
Just ask my husband.
I am feeling the need to share but holding back because as much as I love my blog life, I don't share everything on here.
I am going through some stuff right now.
Some serious, emotional stuff that has slowly taken over my entire being.
My everyday life.
I am not as tough as I act.
And I feel like I am drowning.
Like I am holding my breath.....unable to exhale.
And I just don't know how to deal with it all.
How to hold it all together when all I want to do is crawl under the covers and not come out.
I want to drink until I don't feel anything.
I want to sleep for days and days.
I want to run away from this difficult, terrible moment.
But, instead I sit.
Waiting to exhale.