February 20, 2014


The other day I was..umm..kinda yelling at my kids because they were wrestling.
I smiled, because I imagined my father sitting beside me.
He would have said sarcastically, "Why don't you have a few more kids?" and then he would have giggled at his humour.

Last week I was in the grocery store and saw a freshly baked Boston Cream Pie.
I smiled because I remembered how much my daddy loved them.

Today I was remembering how much my dad used to hate cats.
Then, all of a sudden he loved them.
So much, that he and mom had a few at home that I think he loved more than me.
I smiled.

On Nicholas' birthday last week, I remembered my daddy standing outside the birthing room waiting for his first grandchild to be born 12 years ago.
He was so excited.
And nervous.
And fell madly in love with his grandson instantly.
I remembered dad "inspecting" Nicholas and how he was completely in awe of his perfection.
I smiled.

A few weeks ago I drove my father's pick up truck.
It still smells like him.
I tried to smile, but I couldn't.

Because he isn't here today, on what would have been his birthday.

Happy Birthday up in Heaven, Daddy.


Anonymous said...

My dad passed away in 2000 and I still think of him daily for all the silly things about him. He had the same type of cancer. Sending much love your way. xox

kelley jensen said...

It is hard when our daddy's leave us behind isn't it. After he died I had a habit of stopping at the coat closet in my parents home, opening the door and wrapping my dads coat around my face. I would breathe in deeply and take in the smell of my dad--earth, wind, the great outdoors. I can still remember the day I gathered the coat around me and the smell was gone. It broke my heart all over again. ((hugs to you)). Stopping by from mama kats kelley at the road goes ever ever on

Gigi said...

Sending hugs. I'm so sorry.

Ida said...

A beautiful tribute to your dad. He sound like a wonderful person and I know you loved him very much.

Mama Kat said...

So not fair. They're supposed to be here until we're okay to live without them...which is never. I'm glad he left behind so many things to smile about though.